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Sinner Saint Servant

My Life So Far as a Policeman, Prosecutor, Pastor & Padre

A former policeman, prosecutor, Defence padre and pastor — rescued from a dark time. A story of service and compassion, mental battles and addiction, recovery and faith… with many hilarious and unexpected adventures along the way.

by Troy White, with Clare Bruce

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About the Book

This compelling memoir is the true story of a high-voltage, high-calibre former Australian Air Force padre, Troy White. With raw honesty and a knack for laugh-out-loud storytelling, Troy tells of his life and career in the NSW police force, in police prosecution, in Christian church ministry, and as a chaplain in the Defence Force. He shares courageously about the secret struggle with alcoholism and mental health challenges that brought him crashing down to earth, almost at the cost of his life. This is a weighty, rivetting and uplifting story of struggle, addiction, recovery and faith — with an uncommonly high frequency of hilarious, "I can't believe this happened" adventures along the way.

About the Authors  

Troy White was in the NSW Police Force from the mid-90s to early 2000s; a pastor from 2006 to 2013; and an ADF chaplain from 2013 to 2022 including Middle East deployment. He now resides in sunny Queensland where the beach is never far away.

Clare Bruce is a writer, editor, digital creator and former journalist. As well as crafting books she is studying psychology and working at UNE in Armidale. This book is her debut work as a ghostwriter; she has also contributed to several other memoirs.

Please note: This book is print only - will not be available in e-book or audio

"Tearing around, organising the others, yelling and laughing 'til hometime..."

These words, written by Troy's fourth-grade teacher, could just as easily have been about Troy the adult: the dad of two, the police sergeant, the Bible college principal or military squadron leader. Wherever life has taken him, those God-given traits — high-voltage, big-hearted and catalytic — have followed. In each of Troy's iterations, from policeman and prosecutor, to pastor, to Defence padre, he has been known for a heart to gather people, to help and serve, to bring comfort, and make people laugh.

For many years though, there was a side that friends and colleagues didn't know. Behind closed doors, Troy was struggling with PTSD, anxiety and depression, and a growing alcohol addiction. Despite incredible career successes, his battles led to a spiral of self-destruction, and an attempt at suicide.

This is the story of what led him to that dark place, and how he has journeyed through to the other side.

Sinner Saint Servant Sinner Saint Servant
Sinner Saint Servant
$24.95

About the Book

This compelling memoir is the true story of a high-voltage, high-calibre former Australian Air Force padre, Troy White. With raw honesty and a knack for laugh-out-loud storytelling, Troy tells of his life and career in the NSW police force, in police prosecution, in Christian church ministry, and as a chaplain in the Defence Force. He shares courageously about the secret struggle with alcoholism and mental health challenges that brought him crashing down to earth, almost at the cost of his life. This is a weighty, rivetting and uplifting story of struggle, addiction, recovery and faith — with an uncommonly high frequency of hilarious, "I can't believe this happened" adventures along the way.

About the Authors  

Troy White was in the NSW Police Force from the mid-90s to early 2000s; a pastor from 2006 to 2013; and an ADF chaplain from 2013 to 2022 including Middle East deployment. He now resides in sunny Queensland where the beach is never far away.

Clare Bruce is a writer, editor, digital creator and former journalist. As well as crafting books she is studying psychology and working at UNE in Armidale. This book is her debut work as a ghostwriter; she has also contributed to several other memoirs.

Please note: This book is print only - will not be available in e-book or audio

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Sinner Saint Servant book cover, the memoir of Troy White written with Clare Bruce

About Troy

Troy White was in the NSW Police Force from the mid-90s to early 2000s; a pastor from 2006 to 2013; andan ADF chaplain from 2013 to 2022 including Middle East deployment. Throughout the many chapters of his life Troy has been known for his spirit of encouragement, service, humour and compassion. He now resides in sunny Queensland where the beach is never far away.

WHAT PEOPLE ARE SAYING

Endorsements & Reviews

  • “This book is more than a biography. It is a story of service, struggle, grace and hope. It reminds us that even strong people can break, that wounds left unattended can deepen, and that redemption is often found in the courage to tell the truth.”

    ~ Principal Air Chaplain (Ret’d) Mark Willis, Former Director General Chaplaincy, Royal Australian Air Force

  • “Talk about going deep! Here is a story of a man being tossed and turned in the ocean of life, then being rescued by God and others who love and care for him. Troy teaches us that there is rescue available for all those suffering from a turbulent life — and when rescued, to not go back into that raging water again.”

    ~ Chief Inspector Gary Raymond APM, OAM (Ret’d) NSW Police Force

  • “Sinner, Saint, Servant is a powerful insight into the life of a man who, even in his early years, pursued great heights in everything he did. He shares colourful memories from his practical joker and Peter Pan self, to stories of a career witnessing horrific scenes and tragic losses. Add to this a well-hidden secret, which brought about life changing consequences..."

    ~ Chrissy Siggee

  • “Anyone reading this book could not fail to be impressed by the story of this incredible man who has touched the lives of so many ... But there’s a price to be paid for devoting your all, and more, to the service of others. Troy’s life has been a roller coaster ride reaching dizzying heights of success, achievements and accolades, then plummeting to heartbreaking near-fatal lows...”

    ~ Robyn Mitchell

  • “An emotional and eye-opening read. The insights Troy shares with us are a salient warning as to the real cost of serving others... and the unwanted consequences if we don’t have boundaries and accountability in place. The grace of God is amazing in that we can still be used by Him to help others even when we don’t have it all together...”

    ~ Pastor Andrew

This book touches on some challenging themes including mental illness, addiction, and violent incidents from a career in policing and Defence. If you are in need of support we encourage you to reach out to services such as Lifeline 13 11 14 and beyondblue.org.au.

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“This very special project required many hours of detailed work, combing through 60 years worth of photos jumbled up in boxes, unearthing the gold, and combining these images with a historical writeup. The result was a beautiful graphic book suitable to be enjoyed and treasured by New Haven, clients, families and staff.” ~ Clare